I was arranging the nursery (again) this morning and had a full on panic attack: there is NO WAY they're going to give us our kid! We're too... too... they're going to laugh at us and take her away. I don't *really* think that, but gee wiz is the feeling strong! The closer I get the more I realize that I don't have a clue.
We're officially in go-mode. I went to the dr. yesterday morning and she got this strange look on her face. "Hm... (silence). You might actually be doing something." Whatever that means -- something or nothing. We'll see. I've been contracting frequently (5+ an hour) but not regularly and I've given up trying to tell the difference between Braxton-Hicks and "real." My dr. told me they were some of each -- I'd progessed to 4cm, 80%. It was stressing me out to guess between the two. I had my "show" this morning. Bags are packed and waiting by the door.
Everyone keeps telling me to enjoy this time, but honestly? I'm feeling crummy and kind of miserable. I haven't eaten since Sunday because my tummy's so upset. I know the next step is going to hurt like a beast -- but I'd rather be there than stuck in a waiting pattern! Discomfort (it's only occasionally pain) would be easier to deal with if I knew it was going to end soon. Maybe today... one can hope :)
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I'm due the same day as you, and I'm feeling just like you! Crummy, yucky, and wanting it over. Huge, thick ankles, and generally uncomfortable all over. I see my dr. tomorrow, and I'm really wondering what she's gonna say. Last week my blood pressure was up quite a bit, so she was going to see what this week shows. She was talking induction, which on the one hand means the end to this pregnancy, but on the other hand I don't know if I want that yet. Not this week, for sure, I'm too busy!! Next Monday or later would be great. That means that I made it to May!! All the best!
Jenny, wow, 4cm already? You lucky duck, I never do *anything* before labor kicks in. I bet once labor starts you're going to go easy. :-) I'm excited for you, keep positive thoughts going like visualizing a soft and open cervix, peaceful feelings during cx etc. I'm a believer in the power of positive thinking and visualization.
AGGH!! So exciting! :) I can't wait to hear a birth announcement! Praying for a easy and smooth delivery for you dear Jenny!
Ooh, I'm so excited for you!!! :) What fun! Ok...maybe not fun, exactly, but it will be such a sweet, beautiful thing to welcome your little blueberry into the world. We all can't wait to meet her!!
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